Except me, probably all knew this i guess...i was shocked, then surprised to know that Ricky is also like us..
anyways...lets hope we too get that courage to do it...
best of luck ricky...sweet n handsome one :)
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
indian bollywood movies on the G stories
A Single Man
I Am Omar
Dunno Y... Na Jaane Kyun
It’s A Man’s World
My Brother… Nikhil
I Am Omar
Dunno Y... Na Jaane Kyun
It’s A Man’s World
My Brother… Nikhil
Monday, February 8, 2010
weeks pass by
to tell truth and handle a relation is very diff thing to do...
more over, people like melodramas...
as i had told before, i was talking to R. ....but he seem to be not having any time ....
today if i speak, max that would be last time too.. i am done with this
i am not trying to be sissy... am just saying what is going on in my mind... everyone faces this...
more over, people like melodramas...
as i had told before, i was talking to R. ....but he seem to be not having any time ....
today if i speak, max that would be last time too.. i am done with this
i am not trying to be sissy... am just saying what is going on in my mind... everyone faces this...
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
recent conversations
off late i am speaking to R and M simultaneously... though i like to speak to R more than M as M is still 22 something, has not settled in life and i think though he is matured physically, mentally he is still an immature kid...
to contrast him is R...poised and settled and around 26... he speaks good English, better than me.. i love to speak to him too... but there is always a glitch...sometimes when i say to him that he should not keep me waiting indefinitely as i don't have much time.. how many times should i give this indication that time is running fast and i have very less time for all these things... i am now making up my time so that i can invest my entire time on chasing my dreams than wetting my pants on dreaming someone who is not achievable... am i not correct?
well, yesterday i was speaking to M. He is so avg student and he is not interested in studies... he is not serious to that extent that he asks me to get him a job... i said it is his problem and he needs to be independent... i think i am right when i said that... sex sexuality should not define your achievements... its independent than that...
well again n again, god proves me that being G/B, you would not get a partner... live this life and do something which is good for others and urself... march is my dead line for everything.. dont worry i wont die... am not a coward to die... its only a deadline so that after that i wont even logon to orkut to find out..probably after that this blog would become obselete too
to contrast him is R...poised and settled and around 26... he speaks good English, better than me.. i love to speak to him too... but there is always a glitch...sometimes when i say to him that he should not keep me waiting indefinitely as i don't have much time.. how many times should i give this indication that time is running fast and i have very less time for all these things... i am now making up my time so that i can invest my entire time on chasing my dreams than wetting my pants on dreaming someone who is not achievable... am i not correct?
well, yesterday i was speaking to M. He is so avg student and he is not interested in studies... he is not serious to that extent that he asks me to get him a job... i said it is his problem and he needs to be independent... i think i am right when i said that... sex sexuality should not define your achievements... its independent than that...
well again n again, god proves me that being G/B, you would not get a partner... live this life and do something which is good for others and urself... march is my dead line for everything.. dont worry i wont die... am not a coward to die... its only a deadline so that after that i wont even logon to orkut to find out..probably after that this blog would become obselete too
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
may be i will take a decision on this soon
Over the years...the first time i met a stranger during 2006 for the first time to some 6 months ago when i met some one stranger again for fun. Its been a uphill and downhill kind of life.
Most times i think , i do dream on sleeping on my beloved's chest and watch a romantic movie which is coming on TV.. I know its a dream which might never come.. am i sounding pessimistic.. no .. am talking sense and probably some of my decisions in life might really make it to remain a dreamn never a reality...
my patience has ran out and i know love can happen any time... but my time has ran out... and i might stop meeting people for this at all.. i mean even as a friend.. as i have lots of my best buddies for whom i need to invest my time rather than investing time on someone else who just needs a body for a while and forget everything.. i just cant stand it...
Most times i think , i do dream on sleeping on my beloved's chest and watch a romantic movie which is coming on TV.. I know its a dream which might never come.. am i sounding pessimistic.. no .. am talking sense and probably some of my decisions in life might really make it to remain a dreamn never a reality...
my patience has ran out and i know love can happen any time... but my time has ran out... and i might stop meeting people for this at all.. i mean even as a friend.. as i have lots of my best buddies for whom i need to invest my time rather than investing time on someone else who just needs a body for a while and forget everything.. i just cant stand it...
Friday, January 15, 2010
Fantasy
What is life without fantasy? Everyone has one…actually more than one... Could be personal, professional, sexual, asexual, devotional etc….
Well…since this blog is for one part of my sexuality… since my childhood I used to have this fantasy of kissing a guy on lips... That came to happen very soon during 1994s when I was still a high school student.. I had a friend called S...I used to call him cheeku...Every time he used to be around, his fragrance used to pull me towards him.. It was a boy’s high school and I had to be extra careful not to let anybody know what was brewing between us. I took a great courage and asked cheeku that I want to kiss him and he is very very pretty… I don’t know why and how... He agreed to that with full heart... every day in that year, I was lucky to kiss him very much before the school assembles… one side of me was very happy on this and the other side was feeling guilt... to cover this guilt, I studied even more.. That year I missed state rank by 20 marks… maybe it was coincidental..
The second time I got lucky on French kissing was with G. I met him through orkut. This was during 2007…. The first time we spoke, the call ended after 10 hours in the early morning of Saturday…. We spoke on mobile phone...Then skipe then again on mobile … it was a fast track one… he was young, I was eager... and then we met at his place near Boston… First time someone took me into his mouth.. I tasted the saliva… since I liked him; I did not feel anything bad about that… in fact great …
Third time it was with Christian at Bentonville... this happened during the heavy winter of 2009. He was an American Indian and since my long time dream was to meet a westerner… he fit it completely... But still I feel he might have lied to me about his age… I still dread that… hope he was at least 18 at the time we met… but he proved to me that he is in fact more than 18 by showing his Driver’s License card… hence the worry was over... Though with Christian I did not do kissing a lot... but I applied honey over his body and licked it… first time I met a white guy and he was so good... but the bad part is they are not emotionally attached to anyone... they tend to be fuck and forget kind..This is what I had heard about... but after meeting couple of them, I realized how wrong I was on this… Chris was very friendly, I enjoyed the 2 hours he was with me... Had given him milk to drink and we chatted for a while after which I told him my fantasy... he agreed … and we did … I was very happy... but he could not stay any longer … I wanted him to stay for the night though… I can understand his problem too as he was still living with his parents… I met 2 more white guys… some more than 6-7 years elder to me... he was a gentle man … I know I may never get a similar time or I may never go to US…
Fantasies never end… if some are cleared, few more would take birth in the heart…
Still my fantasy of meeting a beautiful north Indian is still pending... a fair Kannada guy as a friend with whom I can share both my mind and heart is pending... I know, one day that will come true too... Even if it does not... I have no regrets… Language is no barrier... but one thing I have understood till now is… Physical intimacy is required in G world to keep a relation afloat…even if it is friendship…
Well…since this blog is for one part of my sexuality… since my childhood I used to have this fantasy of kissing a guy on lips... That came to happen very soon during 1994s when I was still a high school student.. I had a friend called S...I used to call him cheeku...Every time he used to be around, his fragrance used to pull me towards him.. It was a boy’s high school and I had to be extra careful not to let anybody know what was brewing between us. I took a great courage and asked cheeku that I want to kiss him and he is very very pretty… I don’t know why and how... He agreed to that with full heart... every day in that year, I was lucky to kiss him very much before the school assembles… one side of me was very happy on this and the other side was feeling guilt... to cover this guilt, I studied even more.. That year I missed state rank by 20 marks… maybe it was coincidental..
The second time I got lucky on French kissing was with G. I met him through orkut. This was during 2007…. The first time we spoke, the call ended after 10 hours in the early morning of Saturday…. We spoke on mobile phone...Then skipe then again on mobile … it was a fast track one… he was young, I was eager... and then we met at his place near Boston… First time someone took me into his mouth.. I tasted the saliva… since I liked him; I did not feel anything bad about that… in fact great …
Third time it was with Christian at Bentonville... this happened during the heavy winter of 2009. He was an American Indian and since my long time dream was to meet a westerner… he fit it completely... But still I feel he might have lied to me about his age… I still dread that… hope he was at least 18 at the time we met… but he proved to me that he is in fact more than 18 by showing his Driver’s License card… hence the worry was over... Though with Christian I did not do kissing a lot... but I applied honey over his body and licked it… first time I met a white guy and he was so good... but the bad part is they are not emotionally attached to anyone... they tend to be fuck and forget kind..This is what I had heard about... but after meeting couple of them, I realized how wrong I was on this… Chris was very friendly, I enjoyed the 2 hours he was with me... Had given him milk to drink and we chatted for a while after which I told him my fantasy... he agreed … and we did … I was very happy... but he could not stay any longer … I wanted him to stay for the night though… I can understand his problem too as he was still living with his parents… I met 2 more white guys… some more than 6-7 years elder to me... he was a gentle man … I know I may never get a similar time or I may never go to US…
Fantasies never end… if some are cleared, few more would take birth in the heart…
Still my fantasy of meeting a beautiful north Indian is still pending... a fair Kannada guy as a friend with whom I can share both my mind and heart is pending... I know, one day that will come true too... Even if it does not... I have no regrets… Language is no barrier... but one thing I have understood till now is… Physical intimacy is required in G world to keep a relation afloat…even if it is friendship…
Monday, January 11, 2010
what a sunday it was
Like i had mentioned before, i was talking to few people. But rarely you do find someone as sensible as you. Dont know if its true or false...or is he a fake.. idont know... as my phone was snatched by a mobile snatcher on a bike, i had lost R's cell number too.. actually i lost all numbers.. as i rememberd only my family's landline.. am having a poor memory in that regards...
well...i knew it from before that he does not check the internet or orkut so often... but i had not lost hope, i had kept on reminding on orkut, sending offline messages on yahoo messenger... atlast yesterday i got his call... i almost felt like crying but then i controlled emotions.. am not a young kid now..am a matured man and i need to act like one... am about to touch the figure 30 in my age...
as i said n beleive... ALL IZ WELL
well...i knew it from before that he does not check the internet or orkut so often... but i had not lost hope, i had kept on reminding on orkut, sending offline messages on yahoo messenger... atlast yesterday i got his call... i almost felt like crying but then i controlled emotions.. am not a young kid now..am a matured man and i need to act like one... am about to touch the figure 30 in my age...
as i said n beleive... ALL IZ WELL
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